so it's snowing here in sunny south central pennsylvania. like, REALLY snowing. the duder is keeping busy with video games, and i am laughing at old mix cds, drinking some gosh darned hoegaarden. ha ha not much going on, so decided to indulge myself in a survey for old times sake. this one's for you myspace!
1.What was the last thing you put in your mouth? besides this earth shatteringly good beer? some hot, french vanilla cafe action. i love you general foods, and your international coffees.
2.Where was your profile picture taken? it was taken on my bed i think?
3.Can you play Guitar Hero? ehh i prefer the karaoke type games. tried dj hero in best buy the other, and i caused a scene since all i could do was train wreck, and laugh.
i recently joined a gym. i've even gone as far as hiring a personal trainer. busting my ass with strength training and cardio, etc. i know that i will never ever be tiny and that's beyond cool, but i wouldn't mind fitting into my favorite pair of jeans again. actually, i've forbade myself from purchasing jeans until i reach my goal. in the meantime it looks like leggings for me!
about a year and i half ago i fell in love with these CRAZY gold leggings at target, but for some reason never bought them? :(
then one day i was perusing the lovely wares at b&lu (a place to find super fantastic clothes for the zaftig set) and i came upon these bad boys.
can you say kismet?
so yeah, wish me luck on my legging clad journey of wellness. i've even started eating better (cooking my own meals helps), and drinking buckets full of water everyday. is it too geeky to say that i'm excited about looking, and feeling healthier? ha ha fuck it, i'm so ready :) all the same, i'm not going to say that i am banishing pizza, beer, and cupcakes forever cuz that would be one of the filthiest lies.
p.s. i promise to wear dresses, tunics, and shirts that at least cover my bum during this time of knit leg wear. pinkie swear.
so the music that i used to love as a middle schooler now causes me to erupt in bouts of hysterical laughter. i was a fun kid. if i could travel back in time i'd totally hang out with teenage amaris! i'd also tell her to pluck her eyebrows, stop holding her feelings in (or eating them), wear flattering clothes, and to keep on wearing green, glittery lipstick.
aaand then the jon spencer blues explosion's music turned me into a woman! the end.
whoa, has it really been a month since my last post? ha ha that sucks.
apart from the flotsam, the jetsum, and spam mail, the internet can be a wonderfully magnificent place. i could go on and on about countless websites that teach you about helping others, helping yourself, making art, getting inspired, saving the world, etc. however, i will not go on and on about all of these aforementioned web gems, because you'll wind up falling asleep (if you haven't already).
let's talk about tumblr. ohhh tumblr. say what you want, but that bitch rules. it's like a feast for the eyes and ears. all awesome images, cupcakes, beer, glitter, dresses, and pizza. i get inspired by the melange of things posted there on a regular basis. it's also safe to say that i prefer it over social networking sites. i'd rather get stoked about ideas, and images than lurk someone or write on their wall. ha ha i don't know?
some of my most favorite tumblelogs (in no particular order, doy) would include:
i've been cheating on this blog with that little tumblr minx for way too long. flaking out and stuff :( i'll be back to posting some super fun jazz soon, though. i've got so much to tell you. also, i sound like a broken record. sorry about that :)
ok. so i'm pretty much treating this thing like one of the many abandoned journals of my youth. you know what i'm talking about...the fancy leather bound one that you buy at borders, that you write like one entry in. or the 99 cent marble notebook that you intend on littering with collage magic, and it JUST DOESN'T HAPPEN. no mas! i'm going to get off my ass, and uhhh get back on my ass? ha ha something like that.
the internet is tricky, being productive (on the internet, and otherwise) is trickier. talking in circles yay! what i'm trying to say is that is that i am once again up and at 'em on the productivity tip. new home, job hunting, life changing, creating things, bright eyed and busy tailed, etc.
so yeah, expect to see more of me on here.
p.s. if the internet were a video game this guy would surely be one of it's bosses.
i can't front; dude's songs are kinda catchy and memorable :( also, much like that "lotion" video, i like pretending that he's every creepy guy that i've ever known :)
so tomorrow i'm headed to philadelphia to party it up birthday style (see the post below). i'm not usually this stoked about turning another year older, but i guess that i'm ready for the next chapter? like, beyond ready. good things, productive things are happening. 29 will be all mine. ha ha i am lame! but yeah, i finally discovered how to make mixes on youtube so i decided to make a birthday mix for myself, and anyone else that would enjoy listening to it :)
i also had to make another polyvore on the wishlist tip, cuz you know.
oh yeah, it occured to me the other day that a ton of stellar people share the same exact birthday as me (see: madonna, betsey j, bb king, deejay ill P, donovan leitch jr. (mmm), tara mason, and rumer willis). hey guys, hey :) i hope that all leo babies in general are having the best birthdays EVER. this is for you.
anxiety, unanswered texts/emails, my favorite people and their lack of enthusiasm for all things amaris, worrying, my busted paw, feeling like a burden as a result of the aforementioned paw, getting annoyed by myself, pointless whining, nagging neurosis, etc. once again i need cher to come and slap me, while demanding that i "snap out of it." she should also totally lend me one of her fabulous wigs.
i'd like to think that tonight is just a hiccup, and that i will emerge tomorrow morning as fresh as a daisy. a daisy who doesn't give a fuck about that negative shit.
i'm half awake, and eons behind on the polyvore train. that's neither here, nor there. i decided that i want to wear patterns, have a crazy cake, wear lots of eye makeup, text people, rock flat shoes, and drink arizona tea(?) on my birthday. it's going to be a party, and i promise that you are invited.
so i totally bought this book for five bucks at barnes & noble. they've got some awesome ideas in it. also, theydon't insinuate that chubbier people, and meat eaters are disgustingly gross devil people...unlike the ladies behind "skinny bitch." in the meantime i seem to have misplaced my copy (see: i lost it in a night club, of all places), but oh well. i'll buy another copy if i could get it for the same price. scout's honor :)
but yeah, i'm still trying to fight the good fight, make healthy choices for my body, be a hotter/better amaris, fitter, happier, more productive, blah blah blah. sucks that i can't exercise my ass off right now, since i'm still rockin' the orthopedic boot. yesterday i found a picture of myself on some nightlife/party website, and i looked like a tan miss piggy, with a side of heaving cleavage. no bueno :(
soooo yeah, back to attempting to whip my ass into shape. hopefully wii boxing, free weights, and some time on the yoga ball will make a dent? i'm also going on the master cleanse again, since i lost a whopping ten lbs the last time. yeah, i know that fasts are bad news, but it kind of felt awesome to get rid of those pesky little toxins. i know my limits :) consider this all part of my positivity mission. i'm almost caught up organizing my life, and this will be a piece of cake. mmm cake. ha ha oh no. i also have pms right now, as well as a nasty cold, soooo cravings are imminent. shit happens.
talking in circles about body image, exercising, and food yay!
i love my pal naimah. i also love the art that she makes. girl's an ace when it comes to painting super fun things on fabric! see?
lucky for us she will be selling her wares at the philadelphia independent craft market. this is going to epic, you guys. magnificent crafts, bands, free BEER?! why wouldn't you go? i'm so there...if i can find a place to crash ha ha. seriously thinking about signing up for couchsurfing.com.
if you can't make it to the craft market (sunday sunday sunday!), take a gander at naimah's line (d. mae!) here, and drop her line :)
once again i've failed at updating this thing. blame foot surgery. blame tumblr. blame weekends full of free food and booze. blame my laziness, duh :)
for now here's a survey. this blog is like a myspace bulletin.
it's the final countdown!
10 things you wish you could say to 10 different people right now…
1. you infuse me with wonder and awe. 2. your morality was a surprising disappointment. 3. teleporter. 4. i don't hate you. shit, i don't even KNOW you. all the same, i think that your "playful" desperation is pretty gross. that's enough, yo. 5. i'll make you so proud...you just don't know it yet. 6. you set the standard for A+ human beings. thank you. 7. i've been missing your friendship a lot for the past year. i've got a gut feeling that you just don't care about me anymore, so i've stopped trying. 8. if we put our brains together it would be all kinds of amazing. let's make lots of money...like that pet shop boys song. 9. i'll love you forever, and you are well aware of this. 10. i think that you're the best dressed person i've ever seen. i'd like to either a. raid your closet, or b. have you as my personal shopper.
9 things people may not know about you
1. i listen to the same music all of the time. it even annoys me. 2. i kind of love being an amazon woman with ginormous circus boobs. 3. my right foot is smaller than my left one. 4. i have a lot of trouble putting my ideas into fruition. 5. i'm a hopeless pack rat. 6. i want a glass of wine right now. 7. my right eybrow is thinner than my left eyebrow. this is because i have a scar there that won't allow my hair to grow. said scar came from that time i threw a guitar in the air and tried to catch it. i was three. 8. i used to go to the local water park in the summer for the sole purpose of screaming at the top of my lungs in public. no one judges you when you're on some crazy water slide called "the ANNIHILATOR." 9. i try to see the good in everything. sometimes it works, sometimes it bites me in the ass.
8 ways to win my heart
1. laughter. 2. awkward silences that make me blush. 3. good iced tea. 4. respect. 5. understanding. 6. unconditional caring. 7. craaaaazy chemistry. 8. pad thai.
7 things that cross your mind a lot
1. healing. 2. my favorite people. 3. ideas for new projects. 4. the future. 5. love. 6. music. 7. good iced tea.
6 things you do before you fall asleep
1. read. 2. medicate myself. 3. wash my face. 4. brush my teeth. 5. mind explosion. 6. meditate.
5 things you notice in the opposite sex
1. hands. 2. eyes. 3. mouth. 4. brain. 5. voice.
4 things you wish you never did
1. car accident, duh. 2. use the internet. 3. worry. 4. waste my time regretting things.
3 songs to describe your life
1. when i grow up - fever ray 2. epitaph for my heart - the magnetic fields 3. fireworks - animal collective
2 things you want to do before you die
1. go on amazing adventures. 2. reach my full potential.
sometimes i wish that i could be heartless, but i know that will never happen. oh well.
oh hey. whoa i totally neglect this blog; blame tumblr. ha ha i love that site. i'd invade that site's personal space if it were a human, you know. wink wink.
ok so things have changed since my last post. i've put my job hunt on hold for the time being as i'm having corrective surgery on my right foot tomorrow. ha ha surprise! as you may or may not know i had a bad car accident about a year and change ago. reconstructive surgeries, hospital stays, and physical therapy ensued. everything has healed apart from my darn right heel. one day when i was upset and discouraged i said, "HEEL?! it certainly doesn't live up to it's name." that's a pretty awful joke. the pun never stops around these parts. but yeah, my poor right foot is crooked, and ridden with arthritis and pain. i am 28, and there is no reason for me to have arthritis yet. tomorrow i am having ankle fusion surgery. i won't explain anymore, because i don't want to psyche myself out LOL :(
needless to say, i am scared shitless you guys. ha ha! is shitless one word? i don't know? anyway, this is for the best. i'm going to be as good as new :)
i love each and every one of you. did you know that? i'm sappier than a maple tree, y'all.
p.s. here's the foot in question. feels like you know me a little better, huh?
no, not really ha ha. but it is something i do quite often. i am not proud :( i even procrastinate when it comes to fun things. wtf. it's my least favorite habit, bar none.
these days i've been job hunting, apartment/roommate hunting, creating, life organizing, and attempting to lead a healthier lifestyle (see: eating better, working out). i've made strides, albeit little, passive ones. it kind of stinks, dudes. like, i want to be wildly ambitious, i want my motivation to last more than a day, i want to be awesome. i need a cheerleader, a guru, and a drill sergeant all at once. i know i can do this. i've done it before :)
i always laugh and/or cringe when people say things like: "today is the first day of the rest of my life!", but tomorrow i will be ALL OVER that action. seriously, gtfo procrastination. i'm over that wishy-washy balderdash. wish me luck!
it's is not a new development, but i am often reminded of just how ginormous they are. i also have big boobs, but that's not what i'm getting at here. heh as usual i don't quite know what i'm getting at? i like my eyes. some have said that they are my best feature. that rules. i guess that some people like big eyes?
my self esteem is better than it's ever been. ha ha seeing as how i actually have self esteem these days. so yeah, i've decided that i would celebrate my favorite features by haphazardly writing about them, while subsequently posting pictures of other girls who have similar attributes. fortunately this will only happen on occasion :)
and now, bring on the eye balls! uh that sounded a lot worse than i wanted it too :(
for the past few weeks or so my dreams have been drizzled in wacky sauce. my dreams are usually pretty normal and mundane. like, i get them mixed up with real life all of the time. lately it's been, um, different. dude, i couldn't make this up if i tried. instead of trying to explain these sleepy time adventures, i will indulge you with a taste. an amuse bouche of amaris' resting brain. ha ha ew that sounds gross! but yeah, some standout bits include:
* the ocean at night with actual stars in the water. it was beautiful.
this is a post about my legs. i've been neglecting this blog as of late (blame my tumblr, yo). i've also been neglecting my legs. last year my right leg got hella skinny from being wrapped up in a cast for months, it was scary. it's back to it's normal size, but it could use some toning. ha ha it's just like my left leg now!
but yeah, legs. i mostly use a picture of my legs as the default photo on my myspace. you see, i'm job hunting and i don't want to be that accessible to prospective employers. not to mention my profile is, like, totally private. i don't have anything to hide of course, but blah blah blah etc. for a while the aforementioned profile was not private, and i had one of those anonymous ~*ultra mega secret box*~ apps. one person insulted me in broken enlish, questioning my creativity. one person said "hotty." and then came the leg comments. "the things i would do to those legs" and "u got nasty fat legs" were my favorite. ha ha pretty sure i know who the "nasty fat leg" comment came from :) people are so weird. i deleted the creepy ~*ultra mega secret box*~ app, and the comments stopped...until recently. just the other day i got an A+ friend request. it speaks for itself.
don't know quite what i was getting at here, but i sure said "legs" A LOT.
my friend chris stanton is a super duper artist, and a top notch dude. one might even say that he is made of awesome. his stuff is all kinds of whimsical and fun, but also touching and nostalgic. never stop making art, chris :)
so tomorrow is the super bowl. i guess that i am rooting for the pittsburgh steelers, as i am a pennsylvanian? anyway, watching sports on tv has never been my thing. all the same, i'm super cool with live sporting events. beer, yelling, junk food (mmm), and excitement yay! actually, lots of beer, yelling, junk food and excitement can ensue whilst watching the tv i guess? ah talking in circles.
well, what i'm trying to get at is the fact that i'm pretty much only stoked on the super bowl because beer and hoagies that are too big to fit in my mouth are involved in said event. the super bowl ain't got nothing on the puppy bowl. ha ha ha. i've watched the puppy bowl for two years in a row now, and it really seems to annoy people. eventually the annoyed people wind up laughing. i mean, who doesn't love puppies? oh, and we musn't forget about the kitty half time. something for everybody. this is going to be epic.