regression session.

so it's snowing here in sunny south central pennsylvania. like, REALLY snowing. the duder is keeping busy with video games, and i am laughing at old mix cds, drinking some gosh darned hoegaarden. ha ha not much going on, so decided to indulge myself in a survey for old times sake. this one's for you myspace!

1.What was the last thing you put in your mouth?
besides this earth shatteringly good beer? some hot, french vanilla cafe action. i love you general foods, and your international coffees.

2.Where was your profile picture taken?
it was taken on my bed i think?

3.Can you play Guitar Hero?
ehh i prefer the karaoke type games. tried dj hero in best buy the other, and i caused a scene since all i could do was train wreck, and laugh.

4.Name someone who made you laugh today?
regretsy.com, duh.

5.How late did you stay up last night and why?
i was up til about 2:30 a.m. watching old LOST episodes.

6.If you could move somewhere else, would you?
here is pretty cool, thanks very much :) although a log cabin in the woods, or a shih tzu farm in the country would rule when i'm older.

7. Ever been kissed under fireworks?
yep.

8. Which of your friends lives closest to you?
apart from my HBG pals, i think that cece might live the closest? or perk. what's closer, DC or philly?

9. Do you believe ex's can be friends?
if there is zero douchebaggery involved, which usually isn't the case.

10. How do you feel about Dr Pepper?
i can get down with cherry diet dr. pepper.

11. When was the last time you cried really hard?
this past week. yaaaaay pms :(

12. Who took your profile picture?
myself.

13. Who was the last person you took a picture of?
Bentastic.

14. Was yesterday better than today?
no. i didn't have to wake up 6 am today, dude.

15. Can you live a day without TV?
of course.

16. Are you upset about anything?
nope.

17. Do you think relationships are ever really worth it?
absolutely.

18. Are you a bad influence?
ha ha i may very well be.

19. Night out or night in?
either or can be all kinds of amazing.

20. What items could you not go without during the day?
my contacts, black eyeliner, and lip balm.

21. Who was the last person you visited in the hospital?
heh i'm usually the one there.

22. What does the last text message in your inbox say?
"he's asian?!"

23. How do you feel about your life right now?
more hours at work would rule, but otherwise things are looking up.

24. Do you hate anyone?
nah.

25. If we were to look in your facebook inbox, what would we find?
spam, secrets, more spam.

26. Say you were given a drug test right now, would you pass?
mmm hmm.

27. Has anyone ever called you perfect before?
that was funny.

28. What song is stuck in your head?



29. Someone knocks on your window at 2:00 a.m., who do you want it to be?
a surprise visit from some friends would rule.

30.Wanna have grandkids by the time your 50?
i don't care?

31. Name something you have to do tomorrow?
wake up, cook, clean, watch documentaries, etc.

32. Do you think too much or too little?
ha ha ha waaaaay too much.

33. Do you smile a lot?
oh yes.

that didn't even feel good ;(

whinenoceros status.

that's how it feels sometimes.

anxiety, unanswered texts/emails, my favorite people and their lack of enthusiasm for all things amaris, worrying, my busted paw, feeling like a burden as a result of the aforementioned paw, getting annoyed by myself, pointless whining, nagging neurosis, etc. once again i need cher to come and slap me, while demanding that i "snap out of it." she should also totally lend me one of her fabulous wigs.

i'd like to think that tonight is just a hiccup, and that i will emerge tomorrow morning as fresh as a daisy. a daisy who doesn't give a fuck about that negative shit.

this felt good :)

touch sensitive-uh.

blah blah blah time for one of these. i fear that this thing is becoming like a giant myspace bulletin :(

What was your favorite candy as a kid?
red and green gummy bears.

Whats the best place to order t-shirts online?
there are cool places to procure some hot t-shirt action all over the place. i guess that karmaloop is cool because they sell shirts by wowch?



Have you ever seen the show Dead Like Me?
no.

How many clocks are in your house?
omg way to many.

Has someone ever sexually poured candle wax on you?
no?

Are you scared of Two-Legged Stools?
ha ha ha what? that's a weird question.

If you were asked to name a very common phobia, what would you say?
agoraphobia.

Can you ever be a vegan?
absolutely.

Has someone ever called you peanut?
yep.

What’s the closest pink object in your reach?
a tube of pink lipgloss.

Have you ever taken a shower, naked, with a friend?
no.

Who do you secretly, or openly, want to have sex with?
lol.

Do you have a currently celebrity crush?
sure.

Do you like nicknames that are from your name?
everyone mispronounces all of my names anyway.

Have you ever gotten into a serious bike accident?
no, surprisingly.

Have you, do you/ would you ever eat tofu?
holy shit yes.

What would you say if a Playboy Playmate walked up to you on the street naked?
i would probably laugh?

Where is most of the furniture in your house from?
all over.

When you play The Sims, do you find your self overly-decorative?
i dont play the sims.

Have you ever washed someones car to get money?
nope.

Whats a question you always wanted to see on a survey but never did?
ha ha i haven't really thought about it.

Have you ever walked in the middle of the street just to piss off people?
noooo.

Were you ever drug tested, if so, what were your results?
yes, and i was c-c-clean.

Have you ever been to a funeral?
yes.

Does your grandma know how to party?
def.

Have you ever been to Villa Roma?
no.

What do you do when someone jokingly slaps your ass?
enjoy it?

Is there a street name that you absolutely love?
bixley heath, y'all. lynbrook, long island 4 lyfe.

Has someone ever written a song about you?
an impromptu one :)

What kind of computer are you taking this survey on?
a PC.

Have you ever seen the Geek Squad car in person?
uh huh.

Have you ever taken a quiz to see how scene you are?
no i have not.

Have you ever shaved your head?
no.

Ever throw something at a fan and laughed as it flew across the room?
no, but i like talking into fans. that's HILARIOUS.

Are you Jewish?
no.

Have you ever dated someone that played drums?
ha ha i don't think so?

Would you rather use a professional camera or a digital camera?
hmmm a professional one.

Do you steal iPods from people on the bus/train?
no, but some girl GAVE me an ipod at a dance party in brooklyn.

Do you currently have have bruises on your body?
no, just mosquito bites.

Have you ever seen someone get beat up, and did something about it?
i yelled. it's scary when i yell.

Have you ever watched Queer Duck?
queer duck?! no, but i'm pretty sure that i need to!

What’s a movie that you haven’t watched in years?
the fifth element.

Have you ever eaten something you weren’t supposed to?
um yeah sure.

Have you ever had the urge to chew on a battery?
yuck.

Have you ever made plans but then decided to just sit in the house?
oh yes.

Did you have anything to drink today?
of course.

Have you ever met a really skinny boy who wished he was skinnier?
nope.

Is there an air conditioner in the room you are currently in?
yes, but it's not cold enough.

How often do you cook?
quite often.

When was the last time you cut your toenails?
a couple days ago.

Why do the majority of teens think that fake eating disorders are cool?
i don't know? if they do that's sad ha ha.

Last movie you saw:
"do you like hitchcock?" by dario argento.

First decade you remember:
80's.

Last drink you drank?
tap water.

blah blah survey blah

once again i've failed at updating this thing. blame foot surgery. blame tumblr. blame weekends full of free food and booze. blame my laziness, duh :)

for now here's a survey. this blog is like a myspace bulletin.

it's the final countdown!

10 things you wish you could say to 10 different people right now…

1. you infuse me with wonder and awe.
2. your morality was a surprising disappointment.
3. teleporter.
4. i don't hate you. shit, i don't even KNOW you. all the same, i think that your "playful" desperation is pretty gross. that's enough, yo.
5. i'll make you so proud...you just don't know it yet.
6. you set the standard for A+ human beings. thank you.
7. i've been missing your friendship a lot for the past year. i've got a gut feeling that you just don't care about me anymore, so i've stopped trying.
8. if we put our brains together it would be all kinds of amazing. let's make lots of money...like that pet shop boys song.
9. i'll love you forever, and you are well aware of this.
10. i think that you're the best dressed person i've ever seen. i'd like to either a. raid your closet, or b. have you as my personal shopper.

9 things people may not know about you

1. i listen to the same music all of the time. it even annoys me.
2. i kind of love being an amazon woman with ginormous circus boobs.
3. my right foot is smaller than my left one.
4. i have a lot of trouble putting my ideas into fruition.
5. i'm a hopeless pack rat.
6. i want a glass of wine right now.
7. my right eybrow is thinner than my left eyebrow. this is because i have a scar there that won't allow my hair to grow. said scar came from that time i threw a guitar in the air and tried to catch it. i was three.
8. i used to go to the local water park in the summer for the sole purpose of screaming at the top of my lungs in public. no one judges you when you're on some crazy water slide called "the ANNIHILATOR."
9. i try to see the good in everything. sometimes it works, sometimes it bites me in the ass.

8 ways to win my heart

1. laughter.
2. awkward silences that make me blush.
3. good iced tea.
4. respect.
5. understanding.
6. unconditional caring.
7. craaaaazy chemistry.
8. pad thai.

7 things that cross your mind a lot

1. healing.
2. my favorite people.
3. ideas for new projects.
4. the future.
5. love.
6. music.
7. good iced tea.


6 things you do before you fall asleep

1. read.
2. medicate myself.
3. wash my face.
4. brush my teeth.
5. mind explosion.
6. meditate.

5 things you notice in the opposite sex

1. hands.
2. eyes.
3. mouth.
4. brain.
5. voice.

4 things you wish you never did

1. car accident, duh.
2. use the internet.
3. worry.
4. waste my time regretting things.

3 songs to describe your life

1. when i grow up - fever ray
2. epitaph for my heart - the magnetic fields
3. fireworks - animal collective

2 things you want to do before you die

1. go on amazing adventures.
2. reach my full potential.

1 confession…

sometimes i wish that i could be heartless, but i know that will never happen. oh well.

x-posted EVERYWHERE, of course.

ahh less than stellar day, dudes. sometimes i just have to tell myself, "chin up buckaroo!" ha ha or something along those lines.

just to let you know, there are super exciting things on the way (blogs, blog collabos, a new flickr account, more blogs, art, iced tea rhapsodizing, etc.) i promise. pinkie swear!

for now here are pictures of me and some creepy gold leggings. i did not buy said leggings.





love you mean it.

ps if you know get the whole "x-posted" thing you win!

one year.

ha ha i totally posted this blog on myspace, but i felt compelled to share it with everybody. here we go...




ok. sooo i was in a nasty (not so) little car accident one year ago today. said accident left me with a fractured left knee cap, torn tendons in my right hand, and a completely crushed right heel. after many months, two reconstructive surgeries, casts, orthopedic braces, and heaps of physical therapy i am almost normal :) my right foot (the one with the busted heel) is still kind of messed up. like, i can't run, stand for long periods of time, or walk on uneven terrain (damaged proprioceptors, haayy). however, i am satisfied in knowing that i will be able to do all of these again at some point!

but yeah, positivity and a sense of humor totally kept my chin up this year. TOTALLY. and my loved ones...oh my loved ones. the ones that kept me smiling. they know who they are, and they know that i love them with every fiber of my being. thank you thank you thank you for being strong and not giving up on me. ya'll are my rushmore.

ah ha ha ha crying.

ah ha ha ha poor sentence structure while crying :)

i love each and every one of you and i mean that. i'm grateful that i'm here, and i'm grateful that remarkable people like you exist.



<3 x 10000000000000000

oh hai new theme song.

i am so sure that it's 10 years of lame to be posting song lyrics all up in your livejournal, let alone your BLOG. ha ha watch me care ;)

"negative thinking" by THE DEATH SET

If I felt cynicism, I'd wrap it in a blanket of discontentment, Fuck that!,
I feel better knowing that I decided not to,
When you were looking 'round, you veered to the right,
Did you notice that?
And I feel better knowing that I decided not to.

In hindsight, I don't want to be like the people I've liked.


ha ha yay!


aaaand in other news, i'm made my first podcast the other night. it's fun.

you'd break your neck to keep your chin up.

k, so i'm still on my "omg i've got to be positive all of the time!" mission. i'm doing ok. i've lost five lbs, i bought shoes that aren't terribly ugly (slouchy black boots, holler). i'm going to a job fair on thursday night, and am ready to charm the pants off of potential employers. yep, things are looking up. sunny side up.

all the same, i'm pretty sure that i should talk to "someone." someone with a phd, and a comfy couch. seems as though the entire world finds my natural, over emotional state to be annoying. it saddens me to know that folks are not really capable of loving me unconditionally, but whatevs. also, i'm still PMSing pretty darn hard. those closest too me think that i'm a drama queen. last night(while talking about my previous blog entry) i asked my boyfriend if i sound like a psycho jealous girlfriend. he told me that i would if i kept going on about what had me so upset. awesome. i then told him that i felt sabotaged and trapped. he understood. HE UNDERSTOOD! :) that was nice, i love it when people understand.

so yeah, perhaps i need professional help? perhaps i don't? all i know is that it certainly helps to come clean. communication is key, as is understanding. i'm an emo bitch and sometimes i cry. i truly hope that those who love me understand that. i'm trying to be stronger, though. things can only get better. you'll see :)

god, my blog entries have been a ton of fun lately, eh? ha ha wow.

p.s. listen to the new copeland album. omg.

LOL Que part ii a.k.a. a better amaris part iii.

the other day i said that i am going to boycott sensitivity. i'm overly sensitive, always have been. cry cry whine. i'll probably always be sensitive, but i am going to try my hardest to be a stronger, positivity infused amaris. i hear that it's GREAT on the other side ;)

in other news, i think that i might actually hate social networking sites? well, not HATE...but they are double trouble, man. like, today i went to leave my significant other a lame comment on the facebook. while doing so (and with no lurkery at all) i noticed that he had written on some girl's "wall." oh, but it was not just any girl, it was the girl that proclaimed that she "hearted" him this one time. ha ha oh boy. but yeah, he wanted to know where she's been hiding, to which she replied something about being in an ugly funk, and how he should take her out for drinks. snort. weird thing is that i'm not mad...just extremely disappointed. i have male friends, i talk to said male friends, my male friends are completely awesome. all the same, my male friends do not publicly proclaim that they ~*heart*~ me. i heart my boyfriend...no, fuck that. i LOVE my boyfriend. I DO. he's my favorite, and i'm pretty sure that he knows it. all the same, i may very well be done with these social networking sites from hell.

ahhh sensitivity. i'm pretty sure that i've gotten worse since the accident. it's almost like i have this "omg! i almost died, so be gentle with me everybody!" stigma going on. i miss my friends so much, i wish that i were at cmj week, i trust everyone which tends to bite me in the ass, i am full of love, aaand i'm having a bad case of the PMS ha ha ha.

now i'm listening to The 6ths and depeche mode while totally blissing out. factor in a hot bath and some wine and/or pot into this mix and i'm good to go. come over and watch "skins" with me tonight, ok?

love you, mean it.



um yes.

ew.

i just realized that as of october 13th i've been on myspace for five years. FIVE YEARS. that's a long time. i now have 2000 and some friends, half of which are bands, etsy shops, filmmakers , etc. it's all good. and the other half would be a melange of delightful human beings from all over the galaxy. yay! but yeah, did you know that i've saved like every single email i've received on the myspace? yep. looking and back and reading some of the old ones is really quite interesting, and very weird. ha ha perhaps i should publish said emails? perhaps not.

if you want to lurk and/or add me please feel free to do so. i trust that (all three) people who read this are not creeps. http://www.myspace.com/theonlyamaris

in other nostalgic news:

long before the internetz (1994, yo) i became mildly obsessed with a song by the electronic group orbital. today i went on youtube and found the video for the aforementioned song. this filled me with every kind of emotion possible. well, not really...like, i wasn't mad or anything ha ha. it was the kind of moment when your heart's in your throat, you're smiling, and tears are streaming down your face. a precious moment, obvi. anyway, here's what i'm talking about:



so nice.

btw, the cute girl in the blue shirt is totally alison goldfrapp, who also happens to be gracing this awesome track with her omg amazing pipes. holy shit. ha ha i'm like a walking compliment today :)

a better amaris part ii.

well, as you know (from reading the post below, of course) i'm totally stoked on making healthy choices for my body. naturally i have to make sure that my mind is moderately safe and sound as well. i've been in two car accidents over the last twelve months, and they certainly have changed me. like i'm pretty much in love with life, and extremely aware of it's fragility. i am lucky.

all the same, my whole situation has left me a bit on the shell shocked end of the spectrum. i cry more than i used to, and that sucks ha ha ha. it's not that bad, i guess, but my confidence has definitely suffered. late last fall i used to drive to see my dude (he lives two hours away) on a regular basis, hang out with my friends a lot, go to work, smoke cigarettes, and go on mini shopping sprees (hellooo outlet malls). these days i have to take a 4-6 hour ($43.00 one way) bus to see my favorite boy, it feels as though my friends can't be bothered, i receive a tiny amount of money as a result of my disability (busted paw), quit smoking which is actually good apart from the weight gain, and can only really afford sale rack/and or thrift shop items. ha that last one aint too bad either, but you know.

so yeah, the aforementioned setbacks seem to cause occasional onslaughts of depression, helplessness, crying spells, pity parties, etc. but WHHHYYYY? i'm SO much better than all of these things, and it's my hands to improve upon them. what i really need is a fire under my ass. i talk about fires under my ass a lot these days. i want to be a better amaris, and self loathing does not a better amaris make :) i am going to work harder, become more organized (LOL), test the waters of my potential because i'm pretty sure that there is an ocean there. ha ha don't you love it when your blog posts are kind of all over the place? this feels good.

as i've said before...things are going to look up BECAUSE i am going to make them look up. for myself and for the people i love the most, because they mean the entire universe to me.

big plans, wish me luck!

i love you.

a better amaris part i.

soooo i'm on a diet now. i ate a small bowl of asopao de camarones and drank some black cherry juice tonight. gonna try and eat my veggies, avoid random sweets, and spend at least an hour on the stationary bike from now on. yep. my new diet will also prove to be helpful when i go out to eat with friends, my man, my fammo, etc., as i will be ordering a very small (and therefore inexpensive) amount of food. yeeeaaah, the fact that i've been disabled for almost a year has certainly taken a nasty little toll on my purse.

out of everyone i must say that the two people who take me on yummy food adventures would be my boyfriend and my mother. ha ha for some reason mom likes to take me for random iced lattes and/or ice creams (among other things). my boyfriend (ohhh my boyfriend) and i are, like, ALWAYS out at some random restaurant. the other day he jokingly said that once i'm better and working that i am going to owe him A LOT of dinners. this upset me and made me cry because: a. crying is my numero uno self defense mechanism (lame, huh?), and b. i generally felt bad and devoid of any independence (read: moochiness). after wearing my sunglasses indoors and pouting over beer and salad i got over it. i did, however, make a decision then and there not to go balls out when i go out to eat anymore (does that make sense?). my waist will thank me, and it will work out for all parties involved, trust me :) i just wish certain people knew just how much they mean to me. like, i'm pretty sure that they know but i just want to make sure.

ahhh fires under my ass are kinda awesome. all the same, there will be no ana/mia business here, thank you very much. i'm ultimately doing this to be healthy.

having goals rocks, and exercise is kind of fun in terms of getting my neglected endorphins pumping. yeah!

part ii up next...

ETA: i'm not giving up on beer though ;)

oh hai.

i haven't updated this thing in a minute, huh? gawd, between physical therapy, and my everyday in's and out's i couldn't really muster up the productivity to write/type/talk in circles about anything. last week was rough. like, "omgz! i'm going to have a breakdown!" rough. between a total mess up with my insurance paperwork, worrying myself silly, wanting to get the heck out of dodge, missing my friends terribly, and the shitty local bus system i was spent. SPENT. then i had an awakening, and decided that if i want something done i have to do it myself (duh amaris). sooo things are looking up, because i am making them look up damn it. ha ha ha.

for some reason this video brightened my day? it's the gift that keeps on giving, yo. i know that it is soooo not cool to laugh at "the silence of the lambs", but i always do :) plus buffalo bill makes me think about this boy i used to talk to. lol he was a creep! i definitely did NOT date him, but all the same my friends were creeped out by him, and did not want me talking to him anymore. like, he was the kind of guy that would ask perverted questions. also, his voice kind of sounded like bufflo bill's? i must have not been much fun to talk to, as i was running for saint at the time. ah ha ha ha. but yeah, this video rules!

why do i still have a livejournal?

because SEXY PIKACHU is on my friend's list.



i mean really.

also, there are some awesome communities (see efagz and ONTD in my links) up in there. not mention, some grade A choice human beings.

and now a little something for the fellas ;)



ps i still have a xanga somewhere. how corny ah ha ha ha.

L.A.M.E.

k. i promised that i'd tell you secrets today. since i've been napping a lot, and kind of worn out as of late (see: long bus rides, ass kickin' physical therapy, anxiety related dreams) the best i can offer is a survey. shit, i've always dug these things. ha ha soooo livejournal. it's my birthday week, so i totally swear that things will get a bit more interesting :)

{---Basics---}
Name: amaris
Nickname(s): ami
Age: 27
Birthday: 8-16-80
Birthplace: manhasset, long island
Current Location: east stroudsburg/analomink, pennsylvania
Eye Color: brown
Hair Color: black
Height: 5'8
Weight: no
Lefty or Righty: righty tighty
Zodiac Sign: leo
What Do You Drive: n/a
Screenname: amidoesnotexist

{---Favorites---}
Color: i wear black a lot, but orange and teal kind of own me
Number: 14
Band: hmm animal collective
Music Genre: anything that takes my breath away...yeah!
TV Show: project runway, yo.
Movie: the neverending story.
Actor: gael garcia bernal, viggo mortensen.
Actress: audrey tatou, samantha morton.
Kind of Movie: oh, you name it.
Cartoon: ren and stimpy, obvi.
Sport: futbol.
Fast Food Restaurant: in and out burger. omg.
Food: sure.
Ice Cream: is going to save the day.
Cereal: gorilla munch. try it!
Candy: jolly ranchers.
Drink: mango iced tea.
Alcoholic Beverage: beer, red wine, girlie drinks with umbrellas, hard stuff...it's all good. lol wino.
Quote: "not the button!" :)

{---Do You---}
Have any siblings: one brother.
Have any pets: donnie and duncan.
Have a job: not at this moment.
Have a cellphone: yes.
Have any special talents or skills: oh several.
Have any fears: a couple.
Have a bedtime: not really.
Sing in the shower: always.
Want to go to college: a better one, yes.
Get along with your parents: yes.
Have any piercings: four.
Have any tattoos: nope.
Swear: uh huh.
Smoke: not since december. yay!
Drink: LOL yes.
Do Drugs: only the ones that are prescribed to me. starscape doesn't count ;)

{---Love & All That Crap---}
Ever been in love: you betcha.
Are you single: nopers.
Are you in a relationship: yes.
Do you have a crush on someone: the entire planet, duh.
Ever been dumped: yes.
Ever dumped someone: yes.
Ever had your heart broken: of course. broken bones hurt more, trust me.

{---This or That---}
Fruit or Vegetable: fruit.
Black or White: buhLACK.
Lights On or Lights Off: i dont care.
TV or Movie: movie.
Car or Truck: i want a neon green vespa.
Cash or Check: cash.
Rock or Rap: dubstep.
Chocolate or Vanilla: vanilla.
French Toast or French Fries: baked french fries with the skin still on. mmmm.
Strawberries or Blueberries: uh both.
Cookies or Muffins: muffin tops.
Winter Break or Spring Break: either can be a blast.
Hugs or Kisses: both at the same time.

{---Have You Ever---}
Danced in a public place: surely.
Smiled for no reason: all of the time, yo.
Laughed so hard you cried: yes! dude, i've passed out from laughing before.
Talked to someone you don't know: all the time.
Drank alcohol: of course.
Done drugs: you asked me this already.
Partied 'til the sun came up: uh huh.
Gotten a ticket: once for selling cigarettes to some narc minor.
Been arrested: no.
Been convicted of a crime: umm nope
Been in a wreck: yeah.
Been out of the country: yes, but it needs to happen more often.

{---Random & Silly Junk---}
Are you a virgin: LOL.
Ever TP'd someone's house: no.
Ever egged someone's house: no.
How many languages do you speak: two and a half.
Who do you compare yourself to: an overgrown bunny rabbit and/or keane painting?
Ever regret anything: i try not to.
Do you like being tickled: secretly yeah.
What are your goals: be fitter, happier, more productive. HA j/k, but not really. yeah i would also like for my foot heal up 100%. oh, and i'd like to go on more on adventures always and 4-ever.
Are your fingers tired: no.
Are you tired of this survey: yes yes yes.
Are you happy: right now, yep.

lol surveys. um, i somehow acquired a file called "micro mix 17 from norway" by atlas sound. i don't remember downloading said file, soooo if one of you sent it to me please let me know and i will personally give you a piece of birthday cake. shit's gonna be dope.

yeah!

in other news, i'm so going to the silent rave this weekend to dance off the aforementioned birthday cake. i looked at pictures. lots of people had juice at the last one?



also, i am dying to try a miami vice.



rum, strawberry daiquiri, and piña colada? yes please. ha ha easy on the coconut, though.

xo

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the past weekend was super fantastic one, but i'll tell you more about it later. promise.

ok. this whole things is going to sound so so soooo lame, but i feel 100% lucky. you see, today (while on the way back from new york) my bruv and i were rear-ended pretty badly on the interstate. i'll spare you the details, but i was definitely freaked out. like, TOTALLY freaked out. the car we were in is wasted for sure...doors jammed, broken glass, twisted metal, me getting pulled out of the driver side window, etc. thank goodness nobody got hurt, though. i've had my share of nasty car accidents, and i am done thanks. done. ahhhhhhhhhhhhh!!! my brain is a heap of mush right now, and this sounds like some kind of weird livejournal entry?! ha ha ew. but yeah, i got very lucky.

right now i am so in love with every person, place, and thing. this happens from time to time. oops ha ha. my friends, and my favorite people are as good as gold. i am pretty sure that they know who they are :)



i'm going to go hide now. or cry. or drink iced coffee while getting crazy with the dvr. it's a game of "choose your own adventure."

xoxoxo