blah blah survey blah

once again i've failed at updating this thing. blame foot surgery. blame tumblr. blame weekends full of free food and booze. blame my laziness, duh :)

for now here's a survey. this blog is like a myspace bulletin.

it's the final countdown!

10 things you wish you could say to 10 different people right now…

1. you infuse me with wonder and awe.
2. your morality was a surprising disappointment.
3. teleporter.
4. i don't hate you. shit, i don't even KNOW you. all the same, i think that your "playful" desperation is pretty gross. that's enough, yo.
5. i'll make you so proud...you just don't know it yet.
6. you set the standard for A+ human beings. thank you.
7. i've been missing your friendship a lot for the past year. i've got a gut feeling that you just don't care about me anymore, so i've stopped trying.
8. if we put our brains together it would be all kinds of amazing. let's make lots of money...like that pet shop boys song.
9. i'll love you forever, and you are well aware of this.
10. i think that you're the best dressed person i've ever seen. i'd like to either a. raid your closet, or b. have you as my personal shopper.

9 things people may not know about you

1. i listen to the same music all of the time. it even annoys me.
2. i kind of love being an amazon woman with ginormous circus boobs.
3. my right foot is smaller than my left one.
4. i have a lot of trouble putting my ideas into fruition.
5. i'm a hopeless pack rat.
6. i want a glass of wine right now.
7. my right eybrow is thinner than my left eyebrow. this is because i have a scar there that won't allow my hair to grow. said scar came from that time i threw a guitar in the air and tried to catch it. i was three.
8. i used to go to the local water park in the summer for the sole purpose of screaming at the top of my lungs in public. no one judges you when you're on some crazy water slide called "the ANNIHILATOR."
9. i try to see the good in everything. sometimes it works, sometimes it bites me in the ass.

8 ways to win my heart

1. laughter.
2. awkward silences that make me blush.
3. good iced tea.
4. respect.
5. understanding.
6. unconditional caring.
7. craaaaazy chemistry.
8. pad thai.

7 things that cross your mind a lot

1. healing.
2. my favorite people.
3. ideas for new projects.
4. the future.
5. love.
6. music.
7. good iced tea.


6 things you do before you fall asleep

1. read.
2. medicate myself.
3. wash my face.
4. brush my teeth.
5. mind explosion.
6. meditate.

5 things you notice in the opposite sex

1. hands.
2. eyes.
3. mouth.
4. brain.
5. voice.

4 things you wish you never did

1. car accident, duh.
2. use the internet.
3. worry.
4. waste my time regretting things.

3 songs to describe your life

1. when i grow up - fever ray
2. epitaph for my heart - the magnetic fields
3. fireworks - animal collective

2 things you want to do before you die

1. go on amazing adventures.
2. reach my full potential.

1 confession…

sometimes i wish that i could be heartless, but i know that will never happen. oh well.

just because i have to post this everywhere.

just so you know.

oh hey. whoa i totally neglect this blog; blame tumblr. ha ha i love that site. i'd invade that site's personal space if it were a human, you know. wink wink.

ok so things have changed since my last post. i've put my job hunt on hold for the time being as i'm having corrective surgery on my right foot tomorrow. ha ha surprise! as you may or may not know i had a bad car accident about a year and change ago. reconstructive surgeries, hospital stays, and physical therapy ensued. everything has healed apart from my darn right heel. one day when i was upset and discouraged i said, "HEEL?! it certainly doesn't live up to it's name." that's a pretty awful joke. the pun never stops around these parts. but yeah, my poor right foot is crooked, and ridden with arthritis and pain. i am 28, and there is no reason for me to have arthritis yet. tomorrow i am having ankle fusion surgery. i won't explain anymore, because i don't want to psyche myself out LOL :(

needless to say, i am scared shitless you guys. ha ha! is shitless one word? i don't know? anyway, this is for the best. i'm going to be as good as new :)

i love each and every one of you. did you know that? i'm sappier than a maple tree, y'all.

p.s. here's the foot in question. feels like you know me a little better, huh?

B. E. AGRESSIVE!

what's the best nation? procrastination!

no, not really ha ha. but it is something i do quite often. i am not proud :( i even procrastinate when it comes to fun things. wtf. it's my least favorite habit, bar none.

these days i've been job hunting, apartment/roommate hunting, creating, life organizing, and attempting to lead a healthier lifestyle (see: eating better, working out). i've made strides, albeit little, passive ones. it kind of stinks, dudes. like, i want to be wildly ambitious, i want my motivation to last more than a day, i want to be awesome. i need a cheerleader, a guru, and a drill sergeant all at once. i know i can do this. i've done it before :)

i always laugh and/or cringe when people say things like: "today is the first day of the rest of my life!", but tomorrow i will be ALL OVER that action. seriously, gtfo procrastination. i'm over that wishy-washy balderdash. wish me luck!

looking like a keane painting rocks.

i have big eyes.



it's is not a new development, but i am often reminded of just how ginormous they are. i also have big boobs, but that's not what i'm getting at here. heh as usual i don't quite know what i'm getting at? i like my eyes. some have said that they are my best feature. that rules. i guess that some people like big eyes?

my self esteem is better than it's ever been. ha ha seeing as how i actually have self esteem these days. so yeah, i've decided that i would celebrate my favorite features by haphazardly writing about them, while subsequently posting pictures of other girls who have similar attributes. fortunately this will only happen on occasion :)

and now, bring on the eye balls! uh that sounded a lot worse than i wanted it too :(



masha tylna.



oh magibon lol.



blythe, duh.

any big eyed beauties that you can think of?

theatre of the MIND.

for the past few weeks or so my dreams have been drizzled in wacky sauce. my dreams are usually pretty normal and mundane. like, i get them mixed up with real life all of the time. lately it's been, um, different. dude, i couldn't make this up if i tried. instead of trying to explain these sleepy time adventures, i will indulge you with a taste. an amuse bouche of amaris' resting brain. ha ha ew that sounds gross! but yeah, some standout bits include:

* the ocean at night with actual stars in the water. it was beautiful.

* consoling a crying heath ledger by talking to him about ponds cold cream.

* having my personal space invaded by jude law.

* arguing with my boyfriend about porn. explaining to him that alt porn is better via an elaborate slide show.

* hanging from ceiling rafters with my friends in order to avoid being killed by jason. said ceiling rafters eventually turned into seats at a quiz show. jason was the host.

* running into the fat jew at cinnabon in the mall. he was really cool, and explained to me that he only peddles gooey cinnamon goodness for fun.

* turning into a big nosed teenage boy who battles laser wielding dinosaurs in the girl's bathroom.

yep, that's the kind of stuff i dream about. scout's honor.

my mom has one of those dream encyclopedias, and i really should consider giving it a look. or maybe i should see a psychic. i don't know?

my butt my butt my butt.

oh youtube, i will never stop loving you...unless vimeo wins me over.