so i totally turned 30 today. i still suck at updating this here blogger blog, but hey i sure do tweet a lot? ha. again, i'm not going to lie and say that i will fully commit to updating and posting on a regular basis. i'm trying to be an honest woman, you know? but yeah, woo 30! i also recently chopped my hair off. things are good, i'm pregnant with possibility (no babies, though), and waaay past due. teetering on the brink of awesomeness, if you're picking up what i'm putting down. jesus, i sound like i'm speaking in riddles or bob dylan lyrics :(
three more things: i love you, let's talk soon, listen to bronski beat.
i could be redundant and say that i suck at blogging, wah wah wah, etc. but i won't. things have changed LIKE CRAZY in the amaris universe. well, not that crazy but shit's looking up for once, and it's awesome. i'll tell you all about it even if it kills me (lying).
so about a week ago i was feeling way down in the dumps for mildly selfish reasons. when i'm super bummed like that i tend to listen to the saddest music in the world, of course. in doing so i decided to break out some old sparklehorse tunes. sparklehorse's music played a HUGE part in my early 20's, and has stuck with me like melancholic honey ever since. did i actually just type "meloncholic honey?" gross, amaris. but yeah, mark linkous' music has always had such profound affect on me...an affect that i'll never quite be able to explain.
when i heard about his passing i cried. oh my god you guys, i cried the hardest that have in a while (the word "guttural" comes to mind). usually ~*celebrity*~ deaths have zero influence on my moods, but this was different. my guts were wrenched, my heart was broken, and i was not sniveling about my own mundane life for once. heh, i may or may not be choked up right now. ugh :(
mark linkous, your gifts will be missed so much more than you'll ever know.
so it's snowing here in sunny south central pennsylvania. like, REALLY snowing. the duder is keeping busy with video games, and i am laughing at old mix cds, drinking some gosh darned hoegaarden. ha ha not much going on, so decided to indulge myself in a survey for old times sake. this one's for you myspace!
1.What was the last thing you put in your mouth? besides this earth shatteringly good beer? some hot, french vanilla cafe action. i love you general foods, and your international coffees.
2.Where was your profile picture taken? it was taken on my bed i think?
3.Can you play Guitar Hero? ehh i prefer the karaoke type games. tried dj hero in best buy the other, and i caused a scene since all i could do was train wreck, and laugh.
4.Name someone who made you laugh today? regretsy.com, duh.
5.How late did you stay up last night and why? i was up til about 2:30 a.m. watching old LOST episodes.
6.If you could move somewhere else, would you? here is pretty cool, thanks very much :) although a log cabin in the woods, or a shih tzu farm in the country would rule when i'm older.
7. Ever been kissed under fireworks? yep.
8. Which of your friends lives closest to you? apart from my HBG pals, i think that cece might live the closest? or perk. what's closer, DC or philly?
9. Do you believe ex's can be friends? if there is zero douchebaggery involved, which usually isn't the case.
10. How do you feel about Dr Pepper? i can get down with cherry diet dr. pepper.
11. When was the last time you cried really hard? this past week. yaaaaay pms :(
12. Who took your profile picture? myself.
13. Who was the last person you took a picture of? Bentastic.
14. Was yesterday better than today? no. i didn't have to wake up 6 am today, dude.
15. Can you live a day without TV? of course.
16. Are you upset about anything? nope.
17. Do you think relationships are ever really worth it? absolutely.
18. Are you a bad influence? ha ha i may very well be.
19. Night out or night in? either or can be all kinds of amazing.
20. What items could you not go without during the day? my contacts, black eyeliner, and lip balm.
21. Who was the last person you visited in the hospital? heh i'm usually the one there.
22. What does the last text message in your inbox say? "he's asian?!"
23. How do you feel about your life right now? more hours at work would rule, but otherwise things are looking up.
24. Do you hate anyone? nah.
25. If we were to look in your facebook inbox, what would we find? spam, secrets, more spam.
26. Say you were given a drug test right now, would you pass? mmm hmm.
27. Has anyone ever called you perfect before? that was funny.
28. What song is stuck in your head?
29. Someone knocks on your window at 2:00 a.m., who do you want it to be? a surprise visit from some friends would rule.
30.Wanna have grandkids by the time your 50? i don't care?
31. Name something you have to do tomorrow? wake up, cook, clean, watch documentaries, etc.
32. Do you think too much or too little? ha ha ha waaaaay too much.
i recently joined a gym. i've even gone as far as hiring a personal trainer. busting my ass with strength training and cardio, etc. i know that i will never ever be tiny and that's beyond cool, but i wouldn't mind fitting into my favorite pair of jeans again. actually, i've forbade myself from purchasing jeans until i reach my goal. in the meantime it looks like leggings for me!
about a year and i half ago i fell in love with these CRAZY gold leggings at target, but for some reason never bought them? :(
then one day i was perusing the lovely wares at b&lu (a place to find super fantastic clothes for the zaftig set) and i came upon these bad boys.
can you say kismet?
so yeah, wish me luck on my legging clad journey of wellness. i've even started eating better (cooking my own meals helps), and drinking buckets full of water everyday. is it too geeky to say that i'm excited about looking, and feeling healthier? ha ha fuck it, i'm so ready :) all the same, i'm not going to say that i am banishing pizza, beer, and cupcakes forever cuz that would be one of the filthiest lies.
p.s. i promise to wear dresses, tunics, and shirts that at least cover my bum during this time of knit leg wear. pinkie swear.
so the music that i used to love as a middle schooler now causes me to erupt in bouts of hysterical laughter. i was a fun kid. if i could travel back in time i'd totally hang out with teenage amaris! i'd also tell her to pluck her eyebrows, stop holding her feelings in (or eating them), wear flattering clothes, and to keep on wearing green, glittery lipstick.
golden, right?!
aaand then the jon spencer blues explosion's music turned me into a woman! the end.
whoa, has it really been a month since my last post? ha ha that sucks.
apart from the flotsam, the jetsum, and spam mail, the internet can be a wonderfully magnificent place. i could go on and on about countless websites that teach you about helping others, helping yourself, making art, getting inspired, saving the world, etc. however, i will not go on and on about all of these aforementioned web gems, because you'll wind up falling asleep (if you haven't already).
let's talk about tumblr. ohhh tumblr. say what you want, but that bitch rules. it's like a feast for the eyes and ears. all awesome images, cupcakes, beer, glitter, dresses, and pizza. i get inspired by the melange of things posted there on a regular basis. it's also safe to say that i prefer it over social networking sites. i'd rather get stoked about ideas, and images than lurk someone or write on their wall. ha ha i don't know?
some of my most favorite tumblelogs (in no particular order, doy) would include:
a straight up cornucopia of magnificence right there. all of these people infuse me with wonder and awe, even if i don't know some of them in real life, or whatever.
ha ha so i try to make a blog posting about the raddest sites ever, and it becomes a love letter to tumblr? of course it does.
i've been cheating on this blog with that little tumblr minx for way too long. flaking out and stuff :( i'll be back to posting some super fun jazz soon, though. i've got so much to tell you. also, i sound like a broken record. sorry about that :)
ok. so i'm pretty much treating this thing like one of the many abandoned journals of my youth. you know what i'm talking about...the fancy leather bound one that you buy at borders, that you write like one entry in. or the 99 cent marble notebook that you intend on littering with collage magic, and it JUST DOESN'T HAPPEN. no mas! i'm going to get off my ass, and uhhh get back on my ass? ha ha something like that.
the internet is tricky, being productive (on the internet, and otherwise) is trickier. talking in circles yay! what i'm trying to say is that is that i am once again up and at 'em on the productivity tip. new home, job hunting, life changing, creating things, bright eyed and busy tailed, etc.
so yeah, expect to see more of me on here.
p.s. if the internet were a video game this guy would surely be one of it's bosses.
i can't front; dude's songs are kinda catchy and memorable :( also, much like that "lotion" video, i like pretending that he's every creepy guy that i've ever known :)
whoa! so it turns out that hard candy will be joining forces with walmart. the makeup/nail polish junkie in me (i have three traincases full of stuff, you guys) is sooo beyond stoked. are you? :)
so tomorrow i'm headed to philadelphia to party it up birthday style (see the post below). i'm not usually this stoked about turning another year older, but i guess that i'm ready for the next chapter? like, beyond ready. good things, productive things are happening. 29 will be all mine. ha ha i am lame! but yeah, i finally discovered how to make mixes on youtube so i decided to make a birthday mix for myself, and anyone else that would enjoy listening to it :)
i also had to make another polyvore on the wishlist tip, cuz you know.
oh yeah, it occured to me the other day that a ton of stellar people share the same exact birthday as me (see: madonna, betsey j, bb king, deejay ill P, donovan leitch jr. (mmm), tara mason, and rumer willis). hey guys, hey :) i hope that all leo babies in general are having the best birthdays EVER. this is for you.
ok. it's been settled, i'm going to celebrate my 29th birthday in philly. i like philly, and i imagine that i'll like it even more after next saturday!
anxiety, unanswered texts/emails, my favorite people and their lack of enthusiasm for all things amaris, worrying, my busted paw, feeling like a burden as a result of the aforementioned paw, getting annoyed by myself, pointless whining, nagging neurosis, etc. once again i need cher to come and slap me, while demanding that i "snap out of it." she should also totally lend me one of her fabulous wigs.
i'd like to think that tonight is just a hiccup, and that i will emerge tomorrow morning as fresh as a daisy. a daisy who doesn't give a fuck about that negative shit.
i'm half awake, and eons behind on the polyvore train. that's neither here, nor there. i decided that i want to wear patterns, have a crazy cake, wear lots of eye makeup, text people, rock flat shoes, and drink arizona tea(?) on my birthday. it's going to be a party, and i promise that you are invited.
