so i totally turned 30 today. i still suck at updating this here blogger blog, but hey i sure do tweet a lot? ha. again, i'm not going to lie and say that i will fully commit to updating and posting on a regular basis. i'm trying to be an honest woman, you know? but yeah, woo 30! i also recently chopped my hair off. things are good, i'm pregnant with possibility (no babies, though), and waaay past due. teetering on the brink of awesomeness, if you're picking up what i'm putting down. jesus, i sound like i'm speaking in riddles or bob dylan lyrics :(
three more things: i love you, let's talk soon, listen to bronski beat.
i could be redundant and say that i suck at blogging, wah wah wah, etc. but i won't. things have changed LIKE CRAZY in the amaris universe. well, not that crazy but shit's looking up for once, and it's awesome. i'll tell you all about it even if it kills me (lying).
so about a week ago i was feeling way down in the dumps for mildly selfish reasons. when i'm super bummed like that i tend to listen to the saddest music in the world, of course. in doing so i decided to break out some old sparklehorse tunes. sparklehorse's music played a HUGE part in my early 20's, and has stuck with me like melancholic honey ever since. did i actually just type "meloncholic honey?" gross, amaris. but yeah, mark linkous' music has always had such profound affect on me...an affect that i'll never quite be able to explain.
when i heard about his passing i cried. oh my god you guys, i cried the hardest that have in a while (the word "guttural" comes to mind). usually ~*celebrity*~ deaths have zero influence on my moods, but this was different. my guts were wrenched, my heart was broken, and i was not sniveling about my own mundane life for once. heh, i may or may not be choked up right now. ugh :(
mark linkous, your gifts will be missed so much more than you'll ever know.
so it's snowing here in sunny south central pennsylvania. like, REALLY snowing. the duder is keeping busy with video games, and i am laughing at old mix cds, drinking some gosh darned hoegaarden. ha ha not much going on, so decided to indulge myself in a survey for old times sake. this one's for you myspace!
1.What was the last thing you put in your mouth? besides this earth shatteringly good beer? some hot, french vanilla cafe action. i love you general foods, and your international coffees.
2.Where was your profile picture taken? it was taken on my bed i think?
3.Can you play Guitar Hero? ehh i prefer the karaoke type games. tried dj hero in best buy the other, and i caused a scene since all i could do was train wreck, and laugh.
4.Name someone who made you laugh today? regretsy.com, duh.
5.How late did you stay up last night and why? i was up til about 2:30 a.m. watching old LOST episodes.
6.If you could move somewhere else, would you? here is pretty cool, thanks very much :) although a log cabin in the woods, or a shih tzu farm in the country would rule when i'm older.
7. Ever been kissed under fireworks? yep.
8. Which of your friends lives closest to you? apart from my HBG pals, i think that cece might live the closest? or perk. what's closer, DC or philly?
9. Do you believe ex's can be friends? if there is zero douchebaggery involved, which usually isn't the case.
10. How do you feel about Dr Pepper? i can get down with cherry diet dr. pepper.
11. When was the last time you cried really hard? this past week. yaaaaay pms :(
12. Who took your profile picture? myself.
13. Who was the last person you took a picture of? Bentastic.
14. Was yesterday better than today? no. i didn't have to wake up 6 am today, dude.
15. Can you live a day without TV? of course.
16. Are you upset about anything? nope.
17. Do you think relationships are ever really worth it? absolutely.
18. Are you a bad influence? ha ha i may very well be.
19. Night out or night in? either or can be all kinds of amazing.
20. What items could you not go without during the day? my contacts, black eyeliner, and lip balm.
21. Who was the last person you visited in the hospital? heh i'm usually the one there.
22. What does the last text message in your inbox say? "he's asian?!"
23. How do you feel about your life right now? more hours at work would rule, but otherwise things are looking up.
24. Do you hate anyone? nah.
25. If we were to look in your facebook inbox, what would we find? spam, secrets, more spam.
26. Say you were given a drug test right now, would you pass? mmm hmm.
27. Has anyone ever called you perfect before? that was funny.
28. What song is stuck in your head?
29. Someone knocks on your window at 2:00 a.m., who do you want it to be? a surprise visit from some friends would rule.
30.Wanna have grandkids by the time your 50? i don't care?
31. Name something you have to do tomorrow? wake up, cook, clean, watch documentaries, etc.
32. Do you think too much or too little? ha ha ha waaaaay too much.
